It's late November and as the sun begins to dip toward the horizon of another year, I can feel the warmth of nostalgia enveloping my brain. Swearing a little under my breath, I shove the top section of my artificial Christmas tree into the plastic trunk, ignoring the glances of my neighbour through the front-facing... Continue Reading →

Telling myself, "I won't go there" Oh, but I know that I won't care Trying to wash away all the blood I've spilled. This lust is a burden that we both share, Two sinners can't atone from a lone prayer Souls tied, intertwined by our pride and guilt. There's darkness in the distance... From the... Continue Reading →

"You don't know what you're doing!" "Why are you here?" "You're clearly in over your head." "This success won't last forever...they'll find you out soon enough." "You've just been lucky so far... next time won't be so easy." "How long can you keep up this pretence?" "Turn yourself in...you're not good enough!" "You're a fraud!"... Continue Reading →

In light of my previous post 'Is It All Worth It?' (go check it out first if you haven't already), I've been thinking about how we are often striving for certain ideals in the Ethically Non-Monogamous (ENM) lifestyle, and the inevitable pay-offs that are seemingly required to get there. Like an evanescent dream, I'm occasionally... Continue Reading →

Riding the highs and lows of Ethical Non-Monogamy This post feels a little more personal to me, because I aim to write a stream of consciousness (and edit enough of it so that you wouldn't have been able to tell, if I hadn't blatantly admitted it just now)...with the intention that authenticity in my thoughts... Continue Reading →

Coping with Anxiety and Other Strong Emotions in Sex Clubs As much as I'm tempted to portray an image of being a sex club connoisseur, riding high on a mountain of wild and uncomplicated experiences around the underground lifestyle clubs of the UK... I couldn't (and wouldn't) pull this off convincingly. In fact, honest vulnerability... Continue Reading →

As you read on, you’ll come to recognise that this post probably feels much less about any logic, theory or therapeutic reasoning, and more about my musings on a topic that so far, I haven’t found much information on…at least in the specific way for which I was searching. It’s all a bit new, and... Continue Reading →

Understanding your fantasy of swinging, broaching the subject with your partner and navigating next steps There are a myriad of ways that one or both of you in your relationship have come to the realisation that you might want to try dipping your toes into the Ethically Non-Monogamous (ENM) lifestyle. You’ll probably be aware from... Continue Reading →

'Lifestyle' vs 'Vanilla' It's very possible at some point that you've been enjoying a simple 'Vanilla' (anything not-swinger related) dinner party with friends, or been casually trying to finish off a project in the office, when clandestine whispers or secret giggles have begun about "our neighbours who have just installed a pineapple door knocker"/ "the... Continue Reading →